Sunday, August 8, 2010

a day away

my parents arrived in virginia late last night. i took a vicodin for my leg pain and feel asleep, but woke up when they got to our house around 12:30am. it was great to see them and to finally be together. i hope it was good for them to see that i am okay. that we are okay. we got our usual iced mochas and spent the morning talking. i love that. just sitting together and drinking coffee. its feels comforting to me. we packed up today and drove to williamsburg for a wonderful brunch and a little outlet shopping. it was nice to get away. it is way more fun to shop for ava than myself though. we checked into our hotel and rested while ava napped. we went to dinner tonight and ava was great. i kissed her more tonight than i think i have ever. i am falling more in love with her by the second. i was able to ask my parents questions tonight about how they are feeling about everything. its hard to talk about. i mean i want to talk about and i am glad we do, but sometimes i just wish we did not have to. its hard because i can see their pain. i can see it in justin too. its all over him. its real and tomorrow will be big. pray for that. please pray its what we think it is, because i am not prepared for anything else.

last night i woke up at 4am from a horrible dream and i turned over and justin was still awake. i told him my dream was real scary, but in my dream i did not have cancer. so when i woke up i remembered that i did and i got really sad. not an ordinary sad, but like a deep inside sad. hopefully we can sleep tonight.

9 comments:

  1. Love you and hope you have sweet dreams tonight.

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  2. You don't know me - I ran across your blog on a friends blog list; I am praying for you; tomorrow I will be praying for you. When I have big requests that I need to pray for all day I write them on the top of my Daily To do list so that every time I look at that list (which I do often- it is my daily plan) I remember to pray again. I appreciate your testimony, your honestly, you willingness to share. I know God is faithful, but you SHOW that God is faithfal which is a much more difficult task.

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  3. sweet dreams, dear sister....i will be on my knees tonight asking God for the absolute best possible news we can get tomorrow.
    glad you enjoyed your day. start off tomorrow with another stiff mocha and not one, but two donuts with sprinks. (And not the hard circular sprinks, but the long-ish skinny multi-colored ones.)
    i love you three and you're always on my mind.

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  4. Praying for you...Jus...and Ava. Try to rest...

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  5. libby and justin, we're finally home from nj and have read your incredible testimony. you're both an inspiration to us all. we love you and our prayers are with you for wonderful sleep tonight, hearts to receive the Lord's report tomorrow, and then a restful time with your family at the beach house. our hearts and prayers are with you. hug ava for me.

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  6. Libby (Langeland) EppingaAugust 8, 2010 at 8:23 PM

    Hi lib its lib. remember in highschool when we thought it was the coolest thing we had the same name :) well i am REALLY happy that i have the same name as you now because it makes me remember you everyday and read about you that much more. you will be in good hands tomorrow. the waves you feel are a really good thing because your waves will keep everyone going. when you are sad the others around you will be made stronger through it. when you are having a happy day the others around you will let their gaurd down so you can know where they are at with everything. you are very strong and i have no questions that god will use that - thats why he chose you.

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  7. praying for you all and so thankful you are letting us share this journey with you. i look forward to each post.

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  8. praying everyday...many times a day for you guys. Libby, just so you know, I still enjoy shopping for the girls more than myself...that'll never change for you. Hope you slept better last night and I'm praying for nothing unexpected today. We love you.

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  9. Hi Libby,
    It's Jill (Rottman) and I just wanted to let you know that I think of you and your family often- you are in my prayers. Your blog is such a testimony of your faith, and your strength is amazing. Keep up the fight, girl!

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