Friday, October 15, 2010

post chemo 4 and hives

yesterday was pretty eventful at the ryder house. my dad arrived late wednesday night so we all got up in time to eat breakfast before we had to leave at 9:15am for chemo. not sure why but justin and i were moving really slow. but we all had some scrambled eggs and toast and my dr had said at ava's 9 month appointment she could have eggs. so we gave her a few and my dad watched her as we got ready. well at 9:15 (we are supposed to leave) with my hair still in a towel, my mom brings ava to me covered in hives. all over her little face, neck, and hands. it was awful. so i take her in my arms and send my dad to baby benadryl and i call her dr. and they want me to bring her in at 10am for to the dr. we are of course received that she is breathing fine, but just rubbing her eyes with a face full of red bumps. it was so pitiful. it was also her nap time so she was so sleepy. so i got ready. justin made her a bottle and they headed to her pediatrician. i got in the car now very late and drove to chemo alone. was not good. just sad for ava and how i am her mom and i should be there with her. but thankful for my sweet husband who is more than capable of caring for her. which of course he did. and sent me pictures of ava the whole time. so needless to say ava had to get her blood drawn and justin said she was so tough and did not even cry. they will now test her for egg, peanut, banana, and some other common allergies. seriously praying it was nothing or she will grow out of them as being allergic to egg or peanut would be annoying. but had to keep reminding myself while sitting in chemo. she is fine. seriously she is fine.


 sweet baby ava waiting to go see the doctor...no picture can even capture it

my chemo was fine. my wbc were down to 13,000. and i will get a PET scan next week to see how my body is responding to chemo. someone was sitting in my chemo chair so that threw everything off even more. worried about ava. no husband. and now no chair. but i choose another spot in the room that near windows and it was fine. my sweet chemo nurse and i talked more than usually because i was alone and she was not so so busy. it was nice. she helped remind me how blessed justin and i. she works with patients everyday and sees the vast spectrum of people and who gets help and who does not. how some people react to cancer. not physically but emotionally. she must see such a range. for me. for us. even in the midst of cancer the Lord has provided in the most amazing ways. really its more than enough. following jesus and trusting in God does not mean life always works out the way you want it. tough stuff happens and we do not know why. but he is good. i have never been more sure of that in all my life. we have cancer. and its hard. and today i am laying in bed blogging nauseous and sick. its not fun. but God is good because...i have a family that loves me, we live in our dream house, we get meals brought to our house four times a week, people clean, care for ava, the mail does not stop coming, a golf tournament to help with medical bills...i could go on and on. maybe some day i will post just about that. how good God is. but he is. and i am thankful because there are other parts of cancer that are very hard. i wish i did not have to endure. but i do. and i will. justin and my dad arrived 1pm and we got done around 2pn. the plan was for both my mom and dad to come, but with the egg mishap plans changed. came home and slept for a while. went to bed at 9pm. and praying for two things today. my nausea and little ava's allergy. or lack their of. oh, i sure hope so.

10 comments:

  1. Libby, I'm praying for you both. To make you feel better about Ava, Kennedy broke out into an allergy hive once and I freaked out. It looked worse than it was is what the doctor kept telling me. But I was like.... how do you know? Kennedy can't talk and tell me that! HA! She truly didn't seem to be fussy or act like anything was wrong with her though which helped me to feel better. I was just instructed to give her Children's Zyrtec, Clariton or Benadryl. I hope it's the same case for Ava and in a day or two you won't know the hives ever existed!

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  2. Praying so hard Libby! God is so good, even in the crappy circumstances, and its so awesome you continue to see that. I dont think I would. I pray you never loose sight of it. Love you!

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  3. Libby I am so sorry for the set back yesterday. Lifting all of you up this minute and everyday.

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  4. what a busy and un-fun day for you yesterday! I'm glad Ava was still able to breath well and hopefully it's just a fluke thing! Glad you were able to get your chemo done but am sad that you were alone, good thing there are kind nurses out there! Many thoughts of you and your family, keep strong!

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  5. Someone said to me yesterday how we shouldn't be bothered with other people's problems, that we should look after ourselves and get done what we need for ourselves. How very lost and how very wrong these words are. How great is our God to knit His people's hearts together. I see all of the states who are logging on as I write, how many lives your cancer journey has touched and I say the greatest blessing we have in this life is to walk alongside, apart of this body that HE has created, and share the laughter and the tears. For our joy and love is not in our circumstances but in our Abba Father, who has brought us from death to life. Praying for you and your family always and so blessed to be part of Team Libby.

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  6. I don't know you, but pray for you and your family everyday!

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  7. My niece reacts to eggs too, but not when she eats everything with egg in it. Hopefully it will be nothing or she'll just outgrow it! Sorry all that happened :(

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  8. We rec;d our Team Libby bracelets yesterday n our 9yr old son ask about u and as we explained why we got the bracelets n that we will wear them as a reminder to pray for you and your family and other cancer pts . He said he will prayer for you also. We know we have the assurance that God will answer fervent prayer.... FERVENT PRAYER AVAILETH MUCH... Hope your Sunday is going well
    XOXOX

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  9. Praying for peace, comfort, and serenity today. May God continue to bless your family during this most difficult journey.

    In Christ's Love....always.

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  10. Continuing to pray that your WBC will stay up. Hoping that Ava is feeling better. Make sure you don't introduce ANY new foods for several weeks.

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