sweet baby ava waiting to go see the doctor...no picture can even capture it
my chemo was fine. my wbc were down to 13,000. and i will get a PET scan next week to see how my body is responding to chemo. someone was sitting in my chemo chair so that threw everything off even more. worried about ava. no husband. and now no chair. but i choose another spot in the room that near windows and it was fine. my sweet chemo nurse and i talked more than usually because i was alone and she was not so so busy. it was nice. she helped remind me how blessed justin and i. she works with patients everyday and sees the vast spectrum of people and who gets help and who does not. how some people react to cancer. not physically but emotionally. she must see such a range. for me. for us. even in the midst of cancer the Lord has provided in the most amazing ways. really its more than enough. following jesus and trusting in God does not mean life always works out the way you want it. tough stuff happens and we do not know why. but he is good. i have never been more sure of that in all my life. we have cancer. and its hard. and today i am laying in bed blogging nauseous and sick. its not fun. but God is good because...i have a family that loves me, we live in our dream house, we get meals brought to our house four times a week, people clean, care for ava, the mail does not stop coming, a golf tournament to help with medical bills...i could go on and on. maybe some day i will post just about that. how good God is. but he is. and i am thankful because there are other parts of cancer that are very hard. i wish i did not have to endure. but i do. and i will. justin and my dad arrived 1pm and we got done around 2pn. the plan was for both my mom and dad to come, but with the egg mishap plans changed. came home and slept for a while. went to bed at 9pm. and praying for two things today. my nausea and little ava's allergy. or lack their of. oh, i sure hope so.