had to write this down. amazing mail day. it was almost a joke how much came today. perfect timing. justin came to hang with us before he had a meeting tonight but as soon as he walked in the door i asked if he could hang with ava while i ran to the fabric store. i have known for a few weeks what ava was going to be for halloween and i have everything i need for it but i had not made her tutu yet. and i need to today because chemo tomorrow, sick for the weekend, and trick or treating is sunday. so i made her tutu. but needed a little more tulle. i got in the car and backed out and quick checked the mail before i left. it was crazy. so because ava was not in the car i decided to open it all while driving to the store. not safe. i know. a few special things came today. mostly from strangers. which brought the tears. a little dress for ava. lots of gift cards. some very sweet cards. and a check from a church in lexington, ky. and it was crazy because last friday justin got rear ended and the driver is supposed to pay. obviously. but he is being difficult. so we will pay our deductible and then our insurance with reimburse us after they deal with the driver. well when we were coming home obx and talking about it. he said...i pray the lord provides the money. and the check we got was the exact amount of our deductible. crazy. then i got this gift from all the young life ladies in virginia. some on staff and some are wives...its this adorable book entitled...libbys little book of love. full of scripture, songs, and real sweet letters from some women i know real well and others i barely know. i cried as i read each and everyone. so i will never be alone. i got a huge group of women praying for me, justin, and ava. so thank you. then i came home and completed the tutu. fed ava dinner. she is so healthy. she only wanted vegetables tonight. we will see how long this lasts. then she feel asleep in my arms as i rocked her. she rarely does that so when she does its so special. just drinking her bottle and holding her little baby real tight. i am in love. that is for sure. i am in love.
top chef just desserts is on tonight. so if i can stay up until 10pm we will watch that too. i definitely feel a new burst of energy. not really physically as am exhausted. but more in my heart. like my heart feels full.