monday.

it was a long weekend. restful. but hard. i was pretty nauseous. actually really nauseous all weekend. i was talking to laura this morning and mentioned that this nausea was worse than baby ava pregnancy nausea. mostly because with ava it was more than worth it to be sick. but with cancer it just gets annoying. but monday it usually when it begins to subside and it has. saturday ava and i hung out with oma and papa. she loves them. i love watching my dad play with her like i know he did when i was a little girl. we watched u of m lose. sad. but caught the end of the uk game which was great. they had a comeback win in the last few minutes. justin was at the game with his dad and tommy and chris (his brother in laws, but more like brothers). justin went to undergrad at uk and i went to graduate school there. justin and i texted through out the game about how we wish we had a team here to follow. a team we actually cared about so we could tailgate and ava could wear a cheerleader outfit.  but our hearts are with ky and mi. so it will be tough to care about a virignia school. we are trying though.
                       
the kentucky golf outing. needless to say the golf outing in lexington was a success. justin said he has never felt more loved. how i wish i could have been there. around 70 or so golfers came out and many more friends and family were there to help and hang out for the day. thank you thank you thank you. not sure how to properly thank people who put together something like this. but we feel loved and supported. we do not feel alone. we know we are not alone in this. what a gift that is. to know its not just our little family of three...but hundreds and maybe thousands of people who are praying for our family. words can not express. thank you to all of you helped out in any way shape or form. i am humbled. truly. its a direct answer to prayer that our medical bills will no longer be an issue. we love you.

ava's hive update. she is ok. we do not have the results of her blood work yet. but praying it was nothing. you would never even know it happened. kids are pretty resilient. oma and papa flew back to wa last night. it was a visit full of playing with ava, a little shopping, projects, a few gifts, and lots of resting (mostly for me). thanks mom and dad.

i have a pet scan wed. that will show how my cancer is reacting to the chemo. yellow spots light up to indicate where the cancer is in my body. i am hopeful. the spots in my neck are already visibly non existent. and the pain in my hip and rib are better much. i do have pain in my bones throughout my body but we think its from my injections. so the pet scan is big. it will impact my course of treatment. for today i am not scared about it. we will see what tomorrow brings.