Wednesday, October 27, 2010
pet scan results
yesterday we decided to go to the outer banks for the night. some friends have a place there and offered it to us. so we packed up but before we could leave we went to the doctor to check my wbc. while i was waiting for the results of that to see if i needed a shot or not...we found out that my pet scan results were in...and literally the report said EXCELLENT. there only recommendation was to that next time they give me xanax to ease my anxiety a bit. fine with me. those pet scans make me sick. while we were driving to the appointment we prayed in the car...and justin..."lord i hope we are celebrating tonight in the outer banks..." and we did! we do not know any details beyond the fact that my pet scan looked excellent. we will talk specifics tomorrow when i see my dr before i get chemo. it was shocking to read the report the simply said excellent. i am sure there are more specifics and medical terms, but excellent was enough for us. however, my wbc was just over a 1,000 so i did have to get a shot. which was fine considering we were more concerned with the pet scan this visit anyways. so i got my shot, thanked the Lord for healing me, got some chick-fila, filled up with gas and headed to the beach. where it was sunny and 80 degrees. we got there and ava took a nap and justin and i sat on the porch, which was right on the ocean and celebrated! it was nice to experience real joy together. we have not felt that a ton lately. we really love each other. on monday while we were talking in bed i told him i thought he should slow down a bit and that things are getting a little busy. and without even defending himself he said...yup you are right. i have decided that marriage is a bit of a dance. when things are good..its because you are in sync with one another. he loves me so i love him. i serve him and he serves me. the second you lose that...or the dance gets mixed up. its tough. i am short with me so he short with me. he is annoyed with me so i act annoyed with him. it really is dumb. justin and i constantly remind each other that we are for each other. on the same team. always. and right now we are living that. yesterday was a gift. so after ava's nap we went to dinner and celebrated with all you can eat crab legs. loved it. one bummer is that because we were working so hard to eat to your dinner we thought the conversation was lacking a bit. but we did talk about trips we want to take when i am cancer free and how the pet scan results have given me a ton of strength. i know now that all of this is worth it. because the chemotherapy is working. it was just an easy night. ava took a bath in the giant jacuzzi tub and loved it. i mean loved it. got her to bed and watched the biggest loser. we like this show. its not necessarily our favorite season, but we like it. woke up and packed. got a little starbucks for the drive and ava did well. she does not love her car seat anymore. but never screams. just fake cries sometimes. now she is napping and i am about to do the same. resting for chemo tomorrow. because i am so thankful about the pet results i will not focus on the fact that we still have a long road ahead of 8 treatments, pet scans, injections, etc...but instead...for the first time i am thankful for chemo. its killing my cancer. and God gets the glory.