Sunday, August 1, 2010
thursday july 30, 2010
today is the worst day yet. before today i really did have a good attitude. i did not want to "go there" in my head yet about what is to come. what type, stage, chemo, and radiation. i was in my pajamas all day. i napped when ava napped. justin has been wonderful. he is so willing to serve me and do whatever i ask. yesterday he spent the entire day doing landscaping outside. the yard needed it, but i also think it was good for him to be distracted. today i spent time researching lymphoma. not to scare myself, but to educate us before our appt tomorrow. these past two days have been a nice break from seeing doctors. i called my dr today and found out that there would be no biopsy scheduled until my oncologist made the appointment. i spent a lot of time on the phone with my sisters and mom today as we planned when they would all be coming in to see us. our good friends are letting us use their beach house in the outer banks for a week or so and if it works with dr appts and stuff my family will be going there. its great. its nice and big and it will fit everyone. i really want to be there and relax and get away for a bit. we will see if it works out that way. my parents live in wa so they are across the country. that is hard. they are coming in a week or so too. later today justin's dad is arriving from ky. that will be great for justin i think. me too but for sure him. and ava can see her "pop pop." i started crying real hard today and asked my sister and law to come this weekend. it was a decision based solely on emotion. so they are coming tomorrow night. it will be nice to have family in town. ted and justin make dinner and its great. right after dinner my left legs starts to hurt terribly. so i take some medicine and try to sleep. the pain is awful. today was a bad day. today it all seemed a little more real.
Subscribe to:
Post Comments (Atom)
You have a determined spirit that will carry you and Justin through. I am in awe of your ability to face this and with your courage to share your journey with this blog. Your both a rare gem and I'm so blessed to know you. I know you'll get through this somehow. I pray for you and your family daily. Love to all 3 of you. ~Shirl
ReplyDeleteLibby, I thank God that He has given you the strength to share with the world ALL that is happening in your life today. I am a born again christian, and a mother to three beautiful, awesome children. My heart truly breaks reading your story. My youngest has just passed 6 months. A few months ago I was having so many of the symptoms you describe, and like most moms with infants, I too explained things away. I am thankful that for me, my thyroid was the culprit, and it is managable. But reading your story has widened my view, of JUST how thankful I should be. While I whine and complain of my extreme hair loss, fatigue, etc etc, you are struggling just to comprehend where God has you right now. Today, and forever, i will remember to love my children, husband and family sincerely and deeply everyday. And I will be praying for God's perfect will for you, for your family, and for His family. For His strength, his perfect peace, his grace, and for his provision in your life. His plans are perfect, and he does not make mistakes. I truly believe this. Our lives are not our own, but His, for His purpose and glory. Thank you for sharing your story and your heart! 2 Timothy 1:7 For God has not given us a spirit of fear, but of power and of love and of a sound mind.
ReplyDeleteI pray that this verse would be a source of strength through your trial.
Love and blessings
Heather Corporan
A true heart warming story, with so much faith and strength, a pure miracle. Just amazing.
ReplyDelete