for the first time since i started blogging i accidentally deleted an entire post. i have been writing for over an hour and its gone. i just wrote about some big stuff. some things i have been thinking about for weeks and was finally able to sit down and write and take the time to reflect and process this past month. our first cancer free month and its gone. the post is gone. i am not trying to be dramatic...stuff like this happens but i am so mad. furious actually. i had put so much of my heart out there and its gone. i am really disappointed and angry at this current moment. i was about to try again but i got nothing. i was trying to make it sound exactly the same and then it didn't so i will try again tomorrow. but knowing it wont be as good as before. maybe i will surprise myself. i will just try again. enjoy your sunday.