post pet scan and a little decorating.

i had my pet scan this morning. hopefully my last one for a while. the last iv. the last medications. the last time i will enter that building (my pet scans are done at the same place i get chemo). i was a little anxious because yesterday i was terribly sick and throwing up. not sure why. may have been a migraine. and i have also decided since getting cancer that my go to side effect for whatever my aliment might be is throwing up. gross huh. i know. can't help it. nausea is my thing. no one is allowed in the room with me so my friend ally drove me and justin picked me. i am going to tell you about what happens at a pet scan. i never knew before i had one so i thought maybe readers would like to know. i am going to blog about chemo too. like the details. what goes down. how i feel. how justin feels. and how noura my nurse feels too. she gives chemo to people everyday. i am dying to know to her heart and how/if that impacts her. but every time i try to write about it i literally get sick to my stomach. but one day i will. so at my scan...basically the nurse takes me into a room with a two leather recliners. i was in one and an older women was in the other. i sit in it and they hook me up to an iv. not sure what was going into me but i have to sit there for about an hour. my left arm has gotten a lot of attention over the past seven months but i still can not watch when they draw my blood or put in an iv. i hate it. and it does not even really hurt so i am not sure what my deal is. but either way i hate it. i do it because i clearly have no choice. so then i recline my chair. put on a blanket. music is playing. need you now by lady antebellum played and i cried. not sure why...but i cried. i would say i am pretty emotional right now. i do like that song. but mostly i was just happy and sad at the same time about everything going on. i have a lot moving around inside my heart and head. and its hard to explain any of it but i am trying. then i am asked to drink this rather large radioactive white drink. its sick. i guess it helps them to see things inside me while they are taking pictures during the scan. i drink about 3/4 of it. and i also had to take a major drug to help "chill me out" since last time on my report they said i was a little anxious and recommended i take some heavy medication in the future. so i did. not too heavy though. then i read my nook. i am reading the book hunger games. its crazy and intriguing and i love it. i text a little too. thanks for those of you sent me a little shot out this morning. i appreciate it. after about 45 minutes they take out my iv and then suggest i go to the bathroom. better pictures with an empty bladder the technician tells me. so i do. then i lay down and they put a blanket over me (where i get my scan does is in this mobile trailer. it moves to all different hospitals to provide pet scans and its cold inside there). and then they raise me up and i go in and out of this large donut. my arms are above my head. i just have to lay still and breath normal. it does not feel claustrophobic or anything to me. pretty harmless. they have music playing so i listen to that and think about my ideas for redecorating the guestroom and sprucing up ava's nursery a little bit. grey and white for guestroom and adding a little more pink and some fun fabric to ava's. in case you care. then after about twenty minutes i am done. they lower me down and i feel good. a little funny because of the ativan i took. but not sick this time. yay! justin meets me and we head home. but first stop at dunkin donuts. fyi i am not eating donuts anymore (stopped a few months back in an attempt to eat a little healthier). now its still a skim iced mocha but i eat a turkey sausage flat bread instead. all in all the pet went fine. thank goodness. we will know the results on friday. CANNOT WAIT. i do not use capitals often...so you know i am excited about friday.

today is a good day. the end is near. and we are ready for it.