Friday, October 8, 2010

a new day

i ended last night with not being able to remember what normal felt like. well...i now want to really appreciate. not just say it. but be so thankful for days when i do feel like myself. and today is one of those days. i got up feeling pretty good. took care of ava, organized our bedroom, made us a hotel reservation for saturday night, ate lunch with justin, spent more time with ava, got ready, we took ava to her 9 month check up (she is right on target), got a dd mocha, and now hanging with ava. prayer works. i have never seen that more clearly in all my life than since i have gotten sick. and for that i am grateful. but cancer is always right around the corner. even on the pretty good days. because a lot of my hair came out today. justin says he can't notice anything yet. so i guess its not too bad. just i notice it. and then at ava's pediatrician's appointment we told the whole story. our cancer story. we thought he knew. but he didn't. first he said...did you cut your hair? and i said yes. he asked me why i had cut my hair since its almost winter time and most girls cut their hair for the summer time. so we told him the story and i kinda laughed because i do that sometimes to make it easier. and as he walked out the door he said, "i thought you guys were going to tell me you were pregnant." ah, yes. if only that were the case. but its not. and cancer does not define me. its just a part of our story. and days like today are special. so i am thankful for today.

8 comments:

  1. i am so glad to hear you had a great day :)i am so glad your daughter got to spend some fun time with you. i hope you enjoy your weekend with your hubby :) you deserve it

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  2. I said a prayer for you this morning that today would be a good "normal" day! Praise God from whom all blessings flow! Love on your baby and husband - have an awesome weekend!

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  3. My husband and I are praying for you. I'm glad you had a good day!

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  4. Libby, I am delighted to know u r feeling well today. Have a Blessed Wkend and sing unto God a new song.... let him know He Jesus is the Center of your Joy.. Keep your eyes upon Jehovah , The Most High God and he will never leave you or forsake you as he promised. When the praises go up the blessings come down....
    All to best to you n your family,
    In my prayers
    S

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  5. Praying that tonight is a relaxing and refreshing time for the two of you. And that you feel the Lord's blessings and peace during your time together. Continuing to pray for you friend. Love you!

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  6. Glad you had a good day Libby. I pray that today is going as well.

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  7. hearing your voice today, the true libby voice...that is sweet, funny, and confident-was so refreshing...it's been a while since I have heard the light and carefree tone since you've started treatment...it brought joy to my heart...praise God for answered prayers-so glad that you are feeling better this weekend...enjoy your special husband time with justin 2nite...give ava a kiss from me...luv u...becky

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  8. I am so happy to hear that friday was a good day. I am glad you have your strenght and can spend a night away with justin. That bond is so important and I am glad you get that time with him. I will pray for more "normal" days, for strength and courage through the hard days, and for more wonderful nights with your family. I so hope you and justin enjoy your time together!

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