Thursday, June 7, 2012

saranac baby

i have been a bit absent between flying to MI, spending time with family, flying back to VA, driving two days from VA to upstate to NY...i am just sitting down to write a bit. very tired. very busy. but very good.

first. i have been overwhelmed and thankful for the texts, comments, emails, and phone calls since announcing the news of baby #2. one of my favorite texts i got said this: congratulations to you and ryder. what thrilling news. who needs frozen eggs?

from the blog archives. august 2010. a week after my cancer diagnosis:

justin called and cancelled our appointment with the jones institute this morning. its the place where we would go to harvest a few of my eggs. initially we were told their was a slight chance that after my chemo i may not ovulate again. we have since heard that the risk is very low and therefore we are not going to go in that direction. however, i never wanted to do it. to me it meant that i would not get better, or that things would not return to what they once were after this season of life had passed. clearly you can look at in an entirely different way, like harvest a few eggs... you may not need them..but you have them just in case. i saw it differently. to me it meant that my body would not go back to "normal." and that is a hard thing to imagine. we have our sweet ava. i have had the gift, oh the absolute gift of being pregnant, giving birth (which i loved by the way...yes i loved loved labor & delivery)..and being a mom to ava. all this said, there was a moment after justin got off the phone when i had the quick passing thought, i hope we made the right choice. i do hope we made the right choice.

appears we made the right choice. it is truly a miracle. despite the fatigue and nauseous i am experiencing with this this post gave me the perspective i needed. i am healthy. i am strong and i am carrying a little life.


what we have been doing lately.

flower girl in my cousins wedding. she did not make it down the aisle without some tears and assistance from her momma. but she made down all the same. beautiful none the less.
danced all night long.

go-carts, mini golf, and arcade games with the family. ava was not a huge fan of the go-carts.

lake michigan with oma and papa.

my good little traveler.

 hotel in new york with laura, baby keller, ava, and i all in one room.

a few things not pictured. they are gross. but they are real.

ava's horrible reaction to an antibiotic. including lots of diarrhea and throw up. i have never seen anything like it.

ava's incredible timing with her vomit and poop. throwing up in the kitchen as we are heading to the airport. horrible diaper as soon as we got off the plane. throwing up on laura after driving 6 hours. at least it was on tile and not carpet and avoided the plane and the car...but not laura.


we made it to camp. we are safe. ava is feeling better. the Lord has a lot in store and we are excited to be apart of it. pray for health & for lives being changed forever. 

will be back periodically.

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