short hair and our "see you later" party in chesapeake.

i sat down this morning to blog about something entirely different than what i am about to write. i like that. about two minutes ago i was on the couch and decided to watch the video justin made from when i cut my hair before i lost it all (which never ended up happening). as soon as the music started ava ran over from the other side of the room and got right up next to me to watch the video. she yelled "momma" and then a second later looked at me and then back at the movie and said in almost a way of reassurance to herself..."momma. hair. momma hair." i cried. because that is what i do. but i loved that for a quick second although she knew it was me in that video...something looked different. she then reached over the touched the back of my head. my short hair. which is nearly a mullet. but i am trying to grow it back out so there will be some not too cute stages that i think i am okay with...but we will see. this was the first time i watched that video since april and the very first time ever with ava. sweet girl has no idea. no idea that one of the main reasons i cut my hair when i did was because she would pull it sometimes and hair would get stuck in her fingers and all over my back and on the furniture. losing your hair as a women is traumatic. at least it was for me at times. when i see women who voluntarily choose to cut their hair short...man, i respect you. you are way more brave than me. i am not that hip to rock the short hair on my own. i had to do this. just thankful i never lost all my hair due to chemo. happy that my little girl knows who her momma is no matter what length of hair. even though i desperately want my hair long again. i feel a little naked without it. i had long hair for almost my entire life. but it will grow. it's just hair... right?

the first weekend in september of last year my friend laura and i went to the chic wigs and bought my wig for when i lost my hair. my dear friend helen bought it for me as a gift. she had read on the blog that i thought i would just wear scarves so she wrote me an emailing encouraging me to get a wig...just in case. so sweet helen who was battling her own fight with cancer bought it for me. i ended up not needing it so a while back i thought about selling it on ebay or something. i did not want it in my closet anymore. justin suggested we keep it and see if someone may need it and we could give it away. he is much for thoughtful than me. so i did. i kept it hidden in my closet and even tried it on once for my friend ally. well a month or so ago i received an email from a blog reader in tennessee about a young women who was recently diagnosed with cancer as well. lymphoma too. i knew this was where it should go. so i got her address and my friend katie mailed it off to christi (we were gone for two weeks so i did not want to wait to mail it until we got back). a week ago she sent me picture wearing her new wig. my old one. never used. i guess it was always meant for christi and i like that.

 she looks good in it i think. we praying for your christi.

in other news...not sure how to transition so i wont try.

there is a going away party for our family in chesapeake this coming sunday.

9.11.11

5-8pm

505 madera drive. chesapeake. va. 23322

@ the carrs house. 

you can bring a little something...like a dish to pass or something like that.

EVERYONE is welcome. seriously everyone. please come. even if it just for five minutes to give us a hug we would appreciate it so much. we love chesapeake. our time there was so special. special does not even do it justice. chespeake will remain so dear to our hearts. so much has happened for our little family in this place. the community and relationships in this city is like nothing i have ever known before. it was a significant four years. new life long friendships. students parents. camp trips. lots of starbucks. bible studies. sleepovers. mancakes. our leadership and committee. baby ava. late night conversations. campaigners in our first place. lots of grassfield. lots and lots of grassfield. surfing and even a little cancer. we are so thankful that the carr family is hosting this goodbye party for us. it helps us so much. now we can say bye to anyone and everyone who can make it. if you are in the area we hope to see you there.

please come. please come. please come. seriously if you think you might miss us even a little bit. 

just come.